Tiada tajuk.

uarghhhhh! penat penat.. hari ni first time and first day bekerja. penat siottt. tapi apa bleh buat kan, kalau nak enjoy mesti lah gune duit sendiri.

seriously, bos aku tu sporting gilerr. cantik lagi slimmm. fuhhh~ hahahaha.

tapi malangnya, aku boring sangat kat sana ha. esok nak pergi MM lagi. interview kat tempat wayang lagi. hehe. kat kedai cermin mate tu boring sangat. terngantok2. emmm.

mala ajak tengok cermin. dah lah geng aku tu cuti hari ni. hahaha.

930pm.. dah habis kerjaaa! hehe. keluar dari tempat kerjaa, pergi makan kat rumah 'asap' dengan abang angkat aku and kawan die sorg lagi. sambil2 tggu ayah ambil, minum la dulu kan? hehe.

penat punya penat, aku teringat balik an kes semalam. hmmmm.. ngis2 aku dalam kereta tau. ayah pun heran. abg angkat aku tu pun frust. dunia dunia. kenape lah kejam sangat... haihhh.

aku ngis bukan ape, aku ngis sbb aku rasa diri aku ni tak perlukan seorang kawan macam Folla. aku sayang sangat kat die. aku bayangkan kalau aku mati nati mcm mane lah keadaan die kan? sape nak pimpin die lintas jalan. trus lahh air mata aku keluarr ); hidup aku kadang2 takde gune. betul aku cakap. hmmm.. demi kebahagiaan kawan aku an gerek die, aku terpaksa lepaskan die. kawan baik aku sendiri. memang aku bodoh kalau buat macam ni. betul ckp gerek die, kawan mcm aku ni takde gune! bawa gerek orang keluar sampai lewat2 malam.. tapi die taktauu, aku banyak masalah. aku tak tauu nak share kat sape. aku dah takde orang lain dahh.. cume Folla sorg jer yang paham and tauk macam mane nak bg aku nasihat..

tapi apakan daya, semua niat baik aku selama ni tak d pandangg :') takpe. tak kesah pun ni haa. yang penting orang d sekeliling aku bahagie jerr. tu jer yang aku nakk. biar lah aku yang sedih merana terseksa, asal orang lain tak.. hmmm. orang sume cakap buruk pasal aku kat blakang akuu. tapi diaorang tak kenal sape ANNA yang sebenar. diaorang belum kenal. yee yee, maybe lepas ni aku akan teruskan dengan tabiat lame aku dengan rokok and minum. sorry.. ni jer cara untuk aku lupekan semua yang terjadi dalam hidup akuu. lelaki? whatever... takde mase nak fikir. aku takkan cari laki. biar laki yang cari aku. aku dah penat.. aku dah puas d permainkan oleh lelakii. terima kasih buat kalian ye?

lepas ni, aku dah takde sape2 nak halang aku dari tabiat lame aku. kawan aku? diaorang tak kesah. boyfriend? takde. hahaha. family? masing2 busy dengan hal masing2. aku? dengan tabiat lame aku. habis cerite. tapi seriously, balik dari merdeka mall ke taman tunku pakai skateboard memang best gilerrrrrrrrr siot!! \m/

dah lah. penat dah jari nak taip. sebenarnye, masih banyak. hehe. takut blogg ni jer yang tak muat nti. okay byeee peeps!

:')

everything spoiled because of me.

mungkin ini cobaan untuk aku. entah la weii. aku pun dah buntu dah.

friendship.

aku taktau nak buat ape lagi dah. dah sakit dah hati. dah penat jaga hati suma orang. orang sukati jer nak end up friendsip. emm.

i dont know lah. pening pening lalat.

lelaki sini sana buat pening. emmm.

cukup lah aku sakit dipermainkan.

no more. i need a real man a real boy to guide me up.

pfftt. im done man. im done.

orang sakit hati, aku terpaksa pujuk. aku sakit hati, sapa nak pujok? sapa?

anjing? kucing?

fuckk mann.

serious shit,mlm ni aku sedih sanga. but no one knows. aku ngis mlm ni, takde org tau. entah entah kalau aku mati esok lusa, takde org ambil kesah :') bagus la.

all i can do is keep on praying and praying.

aku rase Tuhan je yang tau ape rase aku skrg ni haa. kawan? hmmm :') aku hanya mampu senyum. aku semua yang salah. malam ni, aku serah semua yang aku rase semua yang membebankan hati aku.

friendship and love? aku pasrah.

:')

Ohh ya. esok dah mula kerja. wuuu wuuu. nervous gilerrr. hahaaha.

byeeeeeeeee

Frustrated.

Heyy. hmmm. haritok pke bahasa melayu sarawak jak lah ho? sikda mood mok berspeakin indah bah. tusah tusah. Well, today kinda frustrated. boys boys boys. hmmm. non-stop bah hurtin. so like shit. seriously, im givin' up with boys. emmm. patah hati, malas mau cakap apa gik. here and there boys ckp mok setia tggu and what so ever. pfftt. tired ehh. and boys? pleasee.. the girls sik suka d mejal ok? once the girl says nya sikmok, so that's mean she don't. walaupun dia sudah janji. cuba kamu orang mcm kmi oran perempuan, laki ikut jak mana kamu pergi. mejal mau text. sampai call2 lagi. don't u feel awkward? grenti tak selesa kan? nahhh. so, please. for the boys yang suka gilak sumpah karma, don't think u are that great mok sumpah karma for the girls. now u rasa how the girls rasa when u do that to her. now karma hit u back. sedar2 lahh. sapa mula dulu. karma is karma. kamu mau karma hit me back? OHH PLEASE- berubah dulu okayy? and for the boys out there yang desperate gilak and mok gilak jadikan mpuan sbgai 'stock' torg, please berubah. it's not hard. cm ne torg mun dah kahwen klak? mok smpan stock juak ka kat blakang bini? and please ... jangan suka sangat nak permainkan perasaan perempuan. NOT COOL!! nama lelaki, macho lah sikit ok? bukan mok nganok or what. this i wrote for the one who always permainkan pmpuan. yang terasa jak. and yang tak terasa, bagus. teruskan usaha anda. if u dare to tell the girl u love her, prove it. boh men ngayat mpuan ajakk ba. kau tek hensem mok polah gia an mpuan? calii. sikda or muji olah kauu. bena aku pdh. mkin d bncik ada laa. and 1 warning agikk, don't ever make promises if u sik sanggup mok tunaikan. girls, once d tipu, sidak sikkan cyak torg gik. trustworthy ya ilang gia jak. so, appreciate what u have. dah lah malas gik mok ngerepak byk2 sitokk. yang penting i'm so DISSAPOINTED- hmmm. goodnight.

LotOfLoves.

Lonely.

hey blog. it's been a long time i didnt update u.

sorry lah. kinda busy. PMR bah.

hahahaha.

well, life life life.

why it must be so complicated?

i guess that's why people called it LIFE.

full of sorrows, happy times.

pftt --' whatever.

today, 10.10.11

doesn't bring any happiness to me though.

but, there's plenty much memories that i keep from first month of the year till this date.

tapi memang happy lah. hahahaha.

campur2 my bahasa tok. DO I LOOK I CARE?

gahhhh~

never thought ehhh. never ever ever thought. i can be a single lady again :P

like seriously :| emmmm.

boys here and there and me, tired of dramas.

im not a toy. please..

emmmm. everytime i fall for tht one guy, grenti dia main2.

cakap sayang whatever, tapi memainkan perasaan perempuan.

im afraid to say this, im scared to fall in love again :\

apaapa perasaan, i kept in myself.

people nowadays, semua ignore2, main talam 2 muka. even kawan sendirik.

cukup2 lah with 2010.

full of hatred. sebab kawan juakk. emmm. mok ko?

sakit ati ba.

kadang2, i feel that i have nothing in this world.

but, apa boleh buat. LIFE BAH.

emmmmm

sometimes, i cried in class. no body knows.

my heart screamed out loud. no one knows.

nobody cares :)

so guys out there who's in the same boat w me, stay cool and smile.

LotsOfLoves xx

#talking like setupitt

Iloveyou <3

Too bad you didn't notice (;

Such a wonderful storyy :') i'm cryingg.

This is beautiful!
She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?'

The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'

 Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?'

 The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'

 Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

 The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die.. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'

 Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them She lay down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:

'Dear Mom,
I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You'. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day... Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know.

Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'where was He when I needed him?' 'God said He was in the same place wi th me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore the cancer is all gone.. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

);

hey hey hey ! 

emmm. first of all, takziah untuk nana & family atas kehilangan neneknya yang tersayang.

walaupun, saya baru rapat dengan nana hanya untuk beberapa minggu, saya tahu dia merupakan kawan baik yang jarang kita dapat jumpa :')

nana, stay strongg ok? aku, jiela, mas, sue, naiyn, eina, mijam, jai, ajiq, thomas suma ada untuk kau. mun kau perlukan pertolongan, mekorang ada untuk kauu. mekorg sayang kau na. kesusahan kau, kesusahan mekorg juakk. kesedihan kau, kesedihan mekorg. 

sabar ok? Tuhan lebih sayangkan your Late grandma. 

setiap yang hidup akan pergi juakk untuk selamanya.

mekorg sayang kau na! <3

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part 2. 

asyraf );

i miss him eh.

miss him so damn much. 

how i wish he knows that i reeally miss him.

too bad, he's owned. 

whatever. hmmm. 

i thought he's the one for me. nahhhhhhh~

i don't want to know about love anymore. 

i'm too scared to be in a relationship. 

i'm too scared to fall in love again. 

emmm. 

after what my ex has done to me, has leave too much scars in my heart.

cierrrrr~ jiwang bena bahh.

dah lah dah lah. 

imma off. nights.

aku harap satu hari klak aku akan dapat lelaki nok sanggup plah apa jak untuk org nok nya sayang.

kedak Kasyah dalam Lagenda Budak Setan :p hehe.

<3